Feels Like an Eternity

I feel like I've been on my own for a month when in reality it's only been since last Friday. My husband along with his mother flew to see his grandpa, her dad this week. He turned 87 on Monday and they wanted to spend the day with him. That was wonderful and I'm glad they had the time together! Mean while, back home I'm sad and lonely with a cold bed to sleep in each night!

It doesn't matter that my house is full of kids, dogs, and cats I still felt as if I had been left alone. At night the clock would slow down and crawl, sleep eluded me many times. It has made me question my dependence on this wonderful husband of mine.

We've been married for 21 years. He really is part of me, more than part of me, he completes me in many ways. I know that sounds so corny but it has some truth in it. Why have I allowed this dependence to develop to this point? Why did I not realize the complete need I had for him?

As I am pondering these thoughtful questions I received an e-mail from hubby at 3:15am. Apparently I am not the only one with dependency issues. Whew, that makes me feel much better! Now I can stop over thinking the need I have to have this man in my life! I told him he can't leave me again. I just don't sleep. Nothing gets done around the house because he isn't there to do it! And I hate doing dishes! So no, he cannot have another vacation without me!

He was supposed to be home at 7:15 this evening. I was to pick him up at the airport. Northwest Airlines will not get our business again. It has been a roller coaster all day today! His flight was delayed, the connecting flight was cancelled, he was told he would have to stay the night in Minneapolis, now he thinks he will be on a 6:30 flight this evening and may be in by 10pm. It's all a waiting game. Will I see him tonight? Will it be sometime tomorrow? Will I have another sleepless night? Only time will tell.

This may give me some time to actually clean the house though. It would suck to come home to a house that has been messed up by four kids between the ages of 15 and 20. Not that I do any messing up of anything mind you. I'm never messy.

If you believe that then you don't know me very well. :)

Becoming Involved

I was listening to a great presentation on getting involved. Involved in what you may ask? LIFE! That's what I'm talking about!

We get caught up in the day to day, go to work, come home, clean, cook, check kids homework, fall into bed exhausted. Do it all again the next day.

I am breaking this cycle. I am getting out and meeting people! I'm excited about Beachbody and I want to share the news! I've been involved with Beachbody since 2003. I have had great success with them and I am excited now to have the opportunity to coach others to be successful with Beachbody products! It's time we all start getting involved in our own lives! Get healthy, get fit and enjoy!

I am surrounding myself with those who are interested in doing the same! There is so much more energy surrounding you when you surround yourself with upbeat, outgoing, healthy people! Oh yeah!

Wise Words from Tony...

If you look to the left of my blog you will see that I follow Tony Horton's blog along with many other health related blogs.

I have been in a funk as of late and I have been trying to reclaim some of the old excitement I had towards working out and being fit. I visited Tony's thread today for the first time in a long while and the first three posts on this page hit home hard. All three were wonderful but I am going to copy of them here to share. If you want to see the rest just click the link and visit. He enjoys the company! ;)

Holding On And Letting Go
Look at your life and ask why you're holding on to things that don't make your life better. Now ask yourself if you have the strength to let go of these things. I see in my own life how I keep things around that no longer serve me. Even simple things like the clutter of paper and old useless junk in drawers, closets and on shelves. It's hard to abandon safe, old, familiar objects, philosophies and people in our lives. This would require letting go of the things that make up who you are; even if who you are isn't who you want to be. Most of us are two people at once. The person living in this moment and the person planning, rehearsing and preparing for the future. The person that was, is dead. No need for discussion about that person here. You have right now and the days, weeks, months and years (if you're lucky) in front of you. The person you are right now often becomes unhappy when the plan for the future doesn't come to fruition. Quite often our hopes and dreams are dashed because we couldn't let go of the things that are holding us back. There are two things that make change hard. Letting go of familiar and safe behaviors (that don't work) and adapting (sticking with) new unfamiliar more difficult activities to create change and a better life. You can't hold on and let go at the same time. You can't do P90X and eat junk food. You can't workout in the morning and get drunk after work. Tip-toeing your way to dramatic change can work for some people but my belief is that sometimes you need to clean house completely to prepare yourself for life altering, long term change. This doesn't mean you still can't take small steps when it comes to letting go. I'm not promoting that a 350 lbs person with no fitness background jump into P90X. I am saying that a person like that needs to STOP doing nothing and start finding fit people to hang out with and talk to. If you went around your house right now and threw out and gave away all the crap that's been sitting in your house for years, you'd feel phenomenal.Letting go of the junk you've been holding on to requires finding a more powerful replacement. In your heart you need to trust that the simple act of releasing tired old worthless behaviors is going to bring about a better life. Why is it that when 100 people all get the same life altering information, only a small percentage of those people run with it? It's because the majority of those people can't let go of the people and belief systems that keep them right where they are. Life is frightfully short and I'd hate to see anyone miss out on the incredible opportunities available to all of us. We're all capable. We're all deserving. After reading this write down all the things in your life that aren't working. Then make a list of the things you plan on doing to make your life better. Is it a letter, an e-mail, a phone call or another TO-DO list? Be proactive not inactive! Let go and get going.

And that my friends is what kicked my butt this morning. What will you find that kicks your butt? It's out there. Just go looking for it!

Time to find your why!

Why's are all around us!